suck it

sorry i haven't updated in a while. i'm on my hour break in between jobs right now so i hope this makes you happy....gabe. i'll be typing while i'm shoving my face full of lettuce while i try to finish my meal before i bike off to my next 6 hours of serving assholes. i've been very busy working and haven't had the urge to blog. i thought of something i wanted to blog about yesterday but i decided it would offend almost everyone that probably reads my blog so i decided against it.


i'm watching montel right now. it's about violent tweens. yeah, tweens. there are some albino twins on right now and thier mom is all upset and shit. all the videos they're showing don't seem that abnormal. they just seem to be average boys but whatever. maybe that mom needs to get some balls and take charge.

my new job is really great. i make really good money and the people i work with are nice. i ended up hanging out with the guy that trained me on my first night until like 2am. i was crazy tired when i got home but i had a really good time. i finally found someone that appreciates my dumb humor.


my old boss from the vegan restaurant called me yesterday for no reason. he just wanted to "see how i was doing". it was a really awkward conversation. i think he wanted to hang out that night but i told him i was really tired. weird.




all i can really blog about right now is my work so it's probably a really boring read. which is why i have no desire to blog. maybe when my life starts getting exciting i'll have more to say. everything i think of to blog about seems to be offensive in some way so i think i'll keep my opinions to myself.

shucks

i came across a crumpled piece of origami on the sidewalk today. it reminded me of an assignment i had in fifth grade once. we had to learn how to do something and then teach the class. i decided to learn how to make a jumping frog out of paper. you folded up the paper, like origami, and if you pushed on the end it was supposed to jump. most of the class got it from what i remember. there's always a few dummies out there who fuck up, but overall i think it was a success.




another kid taught us how to tie a tie.....like on a business suit. i don't remember how to do it anymore but every time i try i think back to the fifth grade. i wonder if he still knows how or if he even needs to.





someone else taught us how to make a stuffed snow man out of a sock. i think that was my favorite. mostly because it was something larger than a tea cup i could acutally take home and stare at until i got sick of it or "too old" to care anymore.



i wish i could be 10 again.

grand

the other night some guy told me i had an old soul. i don't know what that means. or if it's good or bad.




i drank too much caffeine tonight. i hope i can sleep. sorry for talking your ear off tyler. you know how i am on coffee.




erik.


i want to see you.



oh yeah, when the fuck was that pic taken of me and channing on your myspace?? i don't remember that at all. i look wasted.





sally.



you can pick me up friday evening. my bus gets in at 7:50pm. so get there at 7:49:56pm central time. it's in KC at 10th and main. don't ask me for directions cuz i don't know. mapquest that shit. and bring all my bitches with you. oh, and i might need a ride back monday morning around 10ish.......so.......um......i would give you gas money......i love you.......or i guess i could hitch hike. i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited to see you. i have gifts and lots of love.




ilenia.



get your fucking phone fixed.



neesa.


call me bitchass.




stephen.



suck it. i'll see you in july.








here are some memories


























































i miss you guys.

check it

i got my real person job!!!!!!



it was all in the business suit. guaranteed.



for those of you who don't know about this job, it's with americorps. americorps is kind of like the peace corps minus the 2 year contract and living in a foreign country. i'll be working in chicago public schools with kids. yeah, kids. i know nothing about kids. i hated them for a long time, actually. so you might be wondering why i want this job. it's because i love things that challenge me and i think this might be a little challenging. i also get payed next to nothing so i'll probably have to have a second job on the weekends. most likely waitressing. they offer food stamps if i didn't want a second job but i think i'll need money for traveling throughout the year. i get the same school vacation as the kids so i'll be going to kansas or miami or new york. hopefully all three.



it starts in september so i still have 4 more months of working a shitty job 6 days a week. yay!!!! i think this will be great because ive been thinking about doing ESL in japan next year. i'm sure having this experience would make me hella qualified for ESL which would be really exciting. hey neesa we should do it together!!!! that would be insane.



oh, and i also got my 300 big ones from our lovely government so i bought my plane ticket for new york today. i'll be there in early july for 5 days. i'm soooo excited!!! neesa i know you dont check my blog often enough so i'll post the details on your myspace.


ilenia,


it was your last day of school. i'm so happy for you!! i just got your message about the email from the ra ra riot guy. thats pretty rad. it's because youre so awesome and god wants you to party. if i could i would send you 10 dollars in the mail to buy yourself a cheap bottle of vodka to get wasted off of tonight. live it up. you only finish school forever once. i don't even know what i did on my last day of classes. got wasted i'm sure. we'll celebrate next week. 7 days!!!!! i'm counting down. i have a present for you. you're going to love it. over and over.
kisses.

beef tips

i quit my job today. well....one of them. i gave them 7 minutes notice. whoops. i made some rice and watched maury. guess what the topic was???


i had my "big person" interview yesterday. i was pretty nervous. yeah, i wore my business suit. two people interviewed me and it took about an hour. about 20 minutes into it i began to think about the vegan cookies i had back at home. i had forgotten about them so i got pretty excited. i think it went well. i should hear something within the next 2 weeks, so i'll let you know. i hope i get it so i can finally feel like i'm doing something important with my life.







i don't know what i'm going to do the rest of the day. it's my last day off before i come to lawrence so i feel like i should use it wisely. cut copy is playing here tonight. i would like to go and dance the night away but i think it's sold out. bummer. neesa, if you were here we would have bought tickets last month and we would already be wasted right now waiting until 10 came around so we could dance until we dropped.



good memories.



i think i might walk around and take some pictures.



oh yeah, i cut my hair too.

i like your scarf

why is it that the drunkest asshole in the room is always the one that hits on me. do i really look like i would be receptive to that shit. gawd.



i went downtown today to explore and find something proper to wear to my interview. i got off the train and started walking. i came across this crazy looking amphitheater in millennium park. there were hundreds of people and some weird band playing. so after walking around staring at people i realized it was a polish festival. that explained why everyone around me was speaking another language.


i'm such a dummy sometimes.



afterwards i walked to the lake front. it was cold and kind of rainy but it was really beautiful. i regretted not bringing my camera on this trip otherwise i could have posted pics!!!! whoops. looks like ya'll will have to visit me in person to see that shit.



after that i finally did it. i bought a business suit. i thought about my mom when i was looking, and what she would have to say about all the things i was looking at. too shiny, too tight, too trendy. the funny thing was, she called me during this. for some reason it just pissed me off so i didn't answer. i found something i thought my mom and i could agree on so i spent 50 big ones and decided to go back home. i listened to her message later while walking back to the train. in the message she told me she had bought me a business suit. i swore very loudly.






considering my interview is in 3 days, i have no idea what she was thinking. is she going to fed ex it to me overnight or something!?!?! wtf?!?!





stress...


i finally uploaded some pics of my apartment. they don't really do it justice. it looks to be really boring and lame but its super cute. so suck it.




























have fun at the party tonight kittens!!!

because i can

i'm getting really tired of the boys i work with. the other day they made a pussy out of tofu. then decided to smother it with cucumber sauce. after countless attempts to get me to look at it i finally told them to fuck off. i think they got the message.


good news though. i have another job. not that it will allow me to quit the other one yet but at least i can have some breathing time.


all i have done the past 2 days is eat, get strong uges to cut my hair, and get sad for really dumb reasons. i think i'm PMSing. this hasn't happened for a long time. maybe i dont want my period to come back. fuck this.




my mom sent me a check for 50 big ones for a business suit and in the memo line she wrote 'think conservative!'





i almost vomited after noticing that.





for those of you who know about the current mother situation, you should know how i feel right about now.



so when i went out to look for something to wear to my interview next week i was attracted to the trashiest things. hmm, i wonder why that was. i think i'll go to the ghetto thrift store down the street and spend $10 and spend the rest of the money on booze. that'll show her!! right? except she'll never know and if she actually found out i would feel really bad. maybe i'll spend it on cat toys instead.





neesa didn't answer her phone so im going to watch some weird science now.