rubber bands

.......i think i got stoned last night







i just snorted some adderall. shit, what's chicago doing to me.





someone from lawrence, he'll remain unnamed, forced me........ok, not really.





i think i'm drunk right now. it's only 10. damn.




















kittens.

i could be at neon right now

i ripped a hole in the crotch of my pants today at work.

that was cool.

i also just ate like a cup and a half of cashews and almonds and now my tummy hurts.

i think i might be allergic to wheat gluten which sucks ass because it makes up about 2/3 of the menu where i work. the rest of it is fried. and i don't eat that either. but there is one salad i can eat.

i took a trip to the whole foods market today. it was a rainy walk to the bus stop but it felt really good. the whole foods market here is actually cheaper than the merc. so the merc can suck it.

i accidentally bought a lot of heavy things and didn't realize i had about 20 minutes of walking to do in the rain. then i was a really big idiot and bought coffee. there was no way i could carry that shit while walking in the rain and successfully drink my coffee. i ended up spilling most of it. it was shitty coffee anyway. not worth the 1.80 i spent on it.

i'm beginning to like my job more each day. my boss lets me choose which music to play so i just bring my ipod and play whatever i feel like. but i have to avoid depressing/offensive things. so that rules out about 72% of what i listen to.

it's interesting to see the kind of people that come into a vegan restaurant. i would never guess some of these people were vegan. it's actually really awesome. whenever someone gets excited about being vegan it makes me excited all over again. then i end up blabbing for like 5 minutes until i realize i should probably shut my mouth.

the people i work with are interesting as well. they're all totally different, but we all get along really well. i'm trying to teach the mexican boys that work in the kitchen to teach me spanish but i don't think they understand. one of them just calls me honey and sweetie or bonita, then he gives me the sexy eye. i remind him of my name and then shake my head.

i still don't think he knows my name.

i took pictures of my apartment to show yall but i'm too lazy to upload them right now. it would probably only take like 4 minutes........but.......i just don't feel like it. maybe tomorrow.

sometimes i feel like the new kid at school eagerly waiting for someone to invite them to the pizza party. too bad i'm so shy. it's ok, i'm keeping myself too busy to be lonely.

holy shit. did anyone ever play this game when they were little???!!!! i fucking loved this game. my brothers and i would play it all the time!!!!

anyway

happy birthday sally. i miss you. i wish i could be there to take "a few" birthday shots with you.

i hope this makes up for it.

sometimes i think i can melt into things, but i know i can't. you know, like alex mack, except i wouldn't turn into mercury or whatever, i would just take on the properties of whatever i melted into. i think that would be cool.

that was weird. i'm so high right now. you believe me......right tyler?

i wish, so i could fall asleep. i guess coffee fucks me up for 12 hours. should have thought about that around 11 this morning. whoops.

i noticed tonight on my walk home from work that my neighbors are currently prepared for every major holiday. they have christmas, halloween, easter, and the forth of july taken care of. i think i'll do that when i'm older and acutally give a shit about littering my house with holiday decor.

i'm done.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxxxxxxxxxxx

sloppy seconds

hey friends

i think today was productive. i job searched for about 5 hours and then came home and passed out for another few hours. this shit is exhausting. then i decided to take a walk. a long walk. out of hipsterville and to the city. it's about 3 miles from where i live. it was really great. there were a few sketchy areas that creeped me out along the way but i didn't get mugged. success! i decided to take the train back home instead of walking another hour or so.

i also ran into an old friend from lawrence randomly on the street today. weird. i like him but the only downer is that he used to be kind of obsessed with me. every time i would see him out he would beg me to marry him or he would tell me that he hated me. so........yeah. not really sure i actually want to hang out with him. but, hey, better than nothing. right?

i got the urge to go dancing tonight but i don't have anyone to go dancing with :(

where my bitchez at??!!!!

there are many hotties here. it's nice.

i think i've only seen 3 sorority type things walking around. that's also nice.

wayyyy too many hipsters. not so nice.

good vegan places. very nice.

here are some photos from sunday night when i hung out with baby birds. it was a good night.

this is my friend willie. we used to work together. somehow his roommates know people that know baby birds and other lawrence folks. strange connections.

this is my friend amanda. i met her last time i visited. unfortunately she doesn't live here. thumbs down to that. we have some good times together.

this is amanda's BF katie. she was fucked up. she was also really nice.

too cool for skool

too cool for TV

this was drew's first bus ride. EVER. well, he probably has ridden on a school bus at one point. but he was real excited none the less. i let drew and luke crash at my place cuz all the other shitfaced people were crashing at the other apartment. my roommate was awake when when got home making some weird puff pastry with her boyfriend thing. i hope i didn't freak her out by bringing home 2 guys on my second night there. whoops.

here are some pics from my going away pot luck. i had a fun night. i thought i took more photos than this but i guess not. too much alcohol.

i saw you

i've decided i don't like blogging. i begin to dread it every time the thought enters my mind. seems like a bad sign.

hey bobby malone.

it might also be because i've been sitting in my room alone for the past 3 hours watching documentaries online with the lights off. i think the illumination is fucking up my eyes.

i need a job

i just got the urge to eat raw garlic. i think it's a bad idea. isn't garlic supposed to make you horny?

real bad idea.

chicago is great.

it smells so good.

bye

as you may already know i will be out of the country for the next 10 days, so don't expect me to update my blog.




sorry, i know i just ruined your day.

botanical gardens

sunday was all about recovery. i woke up after 3-4 hours of drunken sleep to move most of the shit i own to my moms house. my dad showed up around 11. i think he could tell i was fucked up. he asked if i had just woken up and i was like "yeah, uh, i'm tired...." i was so not functional enough to talk to family members. then we drove to my mom's to drop off my furniture. my brother and his soon to be wife were there along with my mom and stepdad. my real dad and step dad unloaded all my shit while i stuffed my face with pasta and corn. then my dad sped off without saying goodbye. i think he felt awkward.

i sat around and surfed the internet while my step dad and brother talked about mortgages for what seemed like an hour. i totally would have chimed in....if i knew what the fuck a mortgage was........the rest of the day was spent stuffing my face with carbs and lying around applying for jobs in chicago. no, i still don't have a job, so suck it. i didn't have the energy to drive home so i just stayed there.

today got off to a sucky start.

i woke up at my mom's house in spring hill to a 7am phone call from my work saying i was supposed to be working. whoops. apparently they changed my schedule and didn't notify me. whoops. i told them it would be a while. i took my sweet time. i was almost 2 hours late. my last day is friday so i really don't give a shit.

here are some photos from saturday night. this was a strange night, but overall i had a good time. this may be my last lawrence party :(

it was a good one


when ilenia and i first got there we walked in on this guy peeing. ilenia told him she "saw his dick" and he got all shy and walked out. ilenia and i giggled.

i don't remember the first band (or two) that played. but here is boo and boo too. i took wayyyyyy too many photos of them, i think because i got all sappy cuz i might never see them play again :( unless they come to chicago!!!!!! hint hint barrett

here's barrett rockin out

i like yr shoes dane.

we ran into this guy again so we invited him to come to the bathroom with us cuz we felt bad about giggling at him earlier. we chatted about blogs (go figure) and he wrote down his blog site on my arm. it's gone now but i think it said l-tard.com

he told me he stole his jacket from someone. oooo gurl better hope the owner of that jacket don't read my bloggggggggg. sucker.

after da bands finished barrett and gabe got the dance pardee started.

here's the dance party

snaggletooth

here's some more dance party

dane lookin' all sassy

ilenia informed me that she kept sticking my fingers in her mouth all night.

i guess this is proof.

it also amazes me how many times i take my camera to parties and look at pictures the next day and there are numerous pictures of me with mystery beers in my hand. i don't know if people give them to me or if i take them from people. probably both.

i don't even like beer.

there was a series of me and barrett making stupid faces. i only included a few. barrett won the fugly face contest this time.

yr tongue is hella wide.

sally pointed out that barrett either has is eyes closed or only half open in every pic i have of him. i informed her it's because he's always wasted.




here's barrett and ilenia gettin' all nasty

this could almost be a family portrait.

i don't know who took this. or why.

toward the end of the night i found barrett passed out. i still had a few hours of partying left in me so i tried to convince barrett to come dance. that's what happens when you mix monster energy and vodka.

i've also noticed that barrett passes out earlier than most. i think he condenses his hard partying into a few hours and passes out rather early. take it slow barrett.

i hope this isn't the last time i see everyone. i hope to be out thursday or friday or both depending.

here are some things i thought about today while i stared at bread.

childhood smells: i smelled something today that reminded me of my childhood but i couldn't figure out what it was. i hate that. but it made me happy anyway.

side ponytails: i never used to like them, but i think certain girls can pull them off. not the up high ones but the down low ones. unfortunately i can't experience a side ponytail for a long time.

craigslist: i was bored at my mom's on sunday so i browsed the lawrence craigslist. damn some people are nasty, other people are desperate. other people are desperate nastos. this one guy obviously didn't get his mac on at the bar so he got home and put a post on craigslist wanting to know if there was a lady out there who wanted to "finish the night right". sicknasty.

also, i would like to make a list of things that suck

-running downhill

-running uphill

-my hip

-dry skin

that happens sometimes

i woke up at 2:30 this morning with the smell of pepperoni pizza corrupting my nostrils. it was kind of overwhelming. when i walked out into the kitchen to get some water i smelled burned popcorn. WTF? i think someone was having a slumber party and didn't invite me.